This sounds completely bizarre (I love that word btw), but I'm coming more and more to believe that in some ways, I am not truly a part of my generation. Don't get me wrong, I love that I have been born at a time where medical technology is as advanced as it is, where I can download a book instantly, and I have (almost) equal rights as a woman. I can't help but feel though that I do not exactly fit in with my peers or even sometimes with the current modes of thinking.
I have always found that many of my closest friends are older than me by 5, 10, even 20 years. I find many of my peers to be immature and annoying. The few friends that I have that are close to my age tend to be an eclectic, but wonderful group. Many of these even are at least a year older than me.
Also, my body type doesn't exactly fit in with how clothes are currently made. First of all, I am short. I have pretty small boobs. Most tops and dresses now expect that you be a solid B or C cup, not the A that I am. As if to laugh at this, I have broad hips and a large butt and thighs. Makes for a bit of an awkward combination sometimes. It's inordinately difficult to find things that fit, but that I like as well. Personal style wise, I tend to like things out of the 30s, 40s, 50s mostly. These are not always easy to find.
Some of my ideas really do not mesh with modern thinking. Unlike most young people in this day and age, I don't want to have sex early on in a relationship. It is something that is hugely important to me and that I don't want to go about willy nilly. Research has shown that sex changes your brain in subtle ways. I don't want my brain changed for just anyone. It has to be someone special....and lasting.
The empahsis of society on the consumer culture bothers me to a great degree. It is something that I am trying to break away from as much as I can. I limit what I buy and whenever possible, try to support local and smaller companies. If I can't do that, then I try to support companies who try to make a positive difference. Tied in with this, I am a huge supporter of the local foods and slow food movement.
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I was born in the wrong time, too. Everything is too politically correct and people are afraid of stepping on one another's feet. I should have been born about 1600 to 2000 years ago. I think I would have been more appreciated. Oh, well.
I think you fit the times. You just don't fit in a nice neat category. Consider that a great blessing! You're awesome, Erin!
P.S. Why do you keep bringing up your boobs? :P
This is something that I have only opened up to a very limited and treasured few...who can appreciate the beauty of them.
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